tumble jumble mind,
cocoon me in sleep until
tomorrow morning

songs of yesterday,
dragons and ants, may the egg
crack and rainbows sing

a beautifully
printed catalogue of dark
atrocities bleeds

transmogrify the
maggots babble into fruit
lanterns and starlight

my synapses buzz
with a chilli chemical
fizz - medication

swim in the twilight
with apples for eyes - rainbows
for tears wash me clean

the maggots babble
in my head then eat my eyes
which burst with juice - swim

I am a ghost who
stares at a wall - the clouds blow
dark and flies whisper

My thoughts are waves that
are never still - I observe
them from the clifftop

I sit at work but
in my mind I lie on the
beach - the restless waves

Listen to the sea
And breathe with the waves, release
the stress and darkness

Cold vinegar tears
bleed from me and the spiders
chase rainbows again

I am a battle
scarred veteran of a war
against depression

I stare at the wall -
I drink the honey sun and
ride the emotions

A bridge to hang from
waits for me. The appointment
I skip; ice cream calls

broken pottery
of my soul sing of laughter
and sunshine day smiles

In my room, on my
island bed - a fortress on
a warm blood sea sails

Sit in the light and
feel alive - away from the
suicide darkness

suicide loops drown me in
fire - let go - let go and breathe -
unbottle your spine - pop,
pop, pop - the muscles release -
the vertebrae click

break free of all the
millions of spider threads which
bewitch and enchant

I am hollow and dark -
the beach calls me and spiders
tie me to the chair

the beach bunker to
fight the long gone enemy -
concrete, rust - a shell

walk away - dance on
the beach - look at my thoughts - shells
contorted - bunker

Erebus winter -
mirror, mirror on the wall -
self image - beetles

a dark lonely freak
tearing out my eyeballs -
the mirror slices

for sale: one used heart,
chipped/bruised - no accessories -
free to a good home

I did all I could
but the first limping steps broke
me - my thrift shop heart

I followed you with
my dreams and we talked: you tried
on dresses - my heart

decomposition
of my mind into threads
and loops - swirling dust

the grit - the soil damp,
juicy dead vegetation -
bacteria - worms

the rain soaked shadows
of anxiety creep, seep
into my bones - grit

hold my head under
the water and stroke my cheek,
I breathe needles - gasp

did you dance alone,
on a midnight tapestry,
crying starlight, blue?

my name is water,
starlight bathes me and winter
gnaws my bones - eyes - fire

whisper - wash - shave and
drop the suicide thoughts - swim
in dappled light - tears

love and dust blind me
and empty sleep drowns my eyes -
song and wine - escape

the snow gently falls -
like falling asleep - drift - move
with the currents - breathe

broken glass and the
bone ache of Erebus, the
daylight passes - wall

learn something new and
whisper that the dark only
holds dreams - walk slowly