sleep calls me and the
melody of the river
is far away - drift

bees - ants - spiders - wasps -
fear - work - swarm intelligence -
bitter sweet pill - breathing

caught in a feedback
loop -- anxiety makes me
anxious and I spin

I could not claim to
be happy - I could not claim
to be sad - sea shells

it was only the
roaring of lions in my
blood - fight or flight - breathe

water - the beach - shells -
the sunlight - the waves
breaking - sensations

cares - anxieties -
fears - psychoses - gravel dragged -
vinegar washed - wave

walk in the light of
simple things - friends, good books, wine
and good food - live life

Fiona Bone - you
weren't the pretty one - you
were the leader - first in

badger, hard worker
sociable with inner steel
the cyclops killed you
no Odysseus to save you
no hero
did you shield your young
companion
or was it too quick,
too brutal -
blown from life
a routine call

Fiona Bone of
the thin blue line - bad luck and
monsters killed you - dice

inchworm - beauty - art -
Blake - Newton - science - Hubble -
the cosmos - truth - Keats

I am not alone.
I have friends and will make it
through - walk on the beach

a constant battle
against the anxiety -
win inches of space

monster wrestling
wears me out like fighting a
rip tide - exhaustion

stroke the monster and
learn control - stop the rampage
through my soul. - Taste quiet - .

coping strategies -
learn to breathe - learn to let go -
learn to hope - learn - live

chains - nettles - eyes - hooks -
tear my flesh and my soul --- wash
me with air - cleanse me

kibble clobber klein
the bottle space dimensions -
schizoid pieces bow

odd ball loner who
lacks self esteem or just
a romantic? - who?

step back and let go -
flow and drift on a silken
stream - to the sea - air

the jagged jangles -
the butterflies that bite and
gnaw your stomach - fear

don't go there -- put the
darkness down and live in the
moment - a lily

all of the shadows
wait and watch - the ants whisper
and the spiders dance

so close to the edge,
I see a vision of a
future - stars shining

a shoulder - river -
harlequin - time - salt and the
beach - uncertainty

the violence of
time which takes no prisoners
and has no mercy

break the discarded
shells and crumble them onto
the sand - violence

seaborg and nargles,
washed by the sun of true friends,
float and dissolve - salt

seaborg and nargles -
dragonflies and the river -
the beach and the rain