the shape of silence
is smooth and round - a pebble
the size of an egg

The dark whispers in
my ear, "Summer is dying".
Night creeps and rises.

aeroplanes - lions -
dragonflies and zoos - twisted
thoughts and jealousy

I had a bucket
full of rain water - like love:
it went down the drain

You took his name and
I need to accept that and
be happy for you.

just make a cup of
tea and do the laundry and
plod. You took his name.

learn the alphabet -
the pasta shapes and pesto
of poverty - ice

learning to live with
fear and stress and not drown in
the tsunami - walk

zombies lurch and yet
slowly I cope with the fear
and learn to survive

a blood splattered wall -
a bridge - a rope - exit right -
paracetamol

strawberries - wine gums -
fruit tea and sunshine - books - friends -
stroking a cat - swim

Godzilla screaming
is how it feels - racing heart
panic attack - waves

tidy unused love
into a box, and keep it
safe; in case of fire

I put my heart in
vinegar to preserve it -
a jar on a shelf

cut my heart and let
fall a drop of blood into
the river - dissolve

sew a patch onto
my heart with a needle and
nettle thread - acid

a boat on the sand
full of holes and moss - flaking
paint - drawer with seashells

I saw the river
flow past my dream of love and
I'm a boat on sand

I saw the river
flow past my dream and I was
left awake - a boat

I saw the river
flow past my dream - gravity
called it to the sea

I saw the river
flow past my dream - it quenched
my soul's ache - the sea

the colours mingle
and spin - transfiguration -
identities fold

the bride wore red and
walked around the fire with him -
barefoot and smiling

you looked so happy -
I must dig my veins and be
happy for you - green

the ashes of love
reveal a phoenix - it flies -
it must be free - sky

phoenix egg - magic
thoughts - swirling red silk and gold -
walk around the fire

listen to music -
slide - drink tea - slide - spin and
circle - slide - and fall

put my hand into
the boiling water and feel
the release - let go

I held the screaming
inside today - the bubbles
are diminishing

I can not say. My
tongue must be sealed in wax. My
feelings ... you are his

take my heart, cut it
into thin strips, gently fry
over a low heat

cloud - pyramid - oil -
basil - bonsai - badger - work -
the bridge - red chillies

lemon sorbet heart -
in the dark, in the light - sour -
sweet - an asteroid

I insist you love me,
but you don't, fall free from the
gravity and fly

I bleed in the dark
but it's OK, the river
washes my soul - salt

go left and take the
interesting path - journey
through woods and mountains

hold on, hold on as
the days fall like rain drops - dance -
eat mashed potato

I drink fruit tea - breathe -
embroidering the silence
without you with calm

vignettes of darkness
and sunlit beaches washed by
smooth breathing waves - fold

the choices you make
that ripple down the time line
of your life - drugs - school

let the poison in
my head drain away through my
tears - remember light

the weeds tangled in
my head, that choked my path and
left me lonely - breeze

my brain fizzles and
pops - new medication sinks
into the grey sponge