walk out of the wood
and read a good book - the bridge
of wrought darkness melts

egg fried rice - mushrooms -
silicon - main function - love -
layers - sediment

my maladaptive
coping strategies have to
change - dance and lemon

spiders - bills - money -
washing up - jagged - jagged
fear - learning to cope

talking of my plan
for suicide - listening,
the doctor - step - step

citrus - mushroom - rope -
poison eyes - anxiety -
doctor tomorrow

learning to relax
and resist the fight or flight
adrenaline bite

voices over wires
and images over light -
the modern world linked

snowdrops - crocuses -
daffodils - tulips and Spring -
evolving colour

the peace of my heart
that I left with you, unquiet
and bleeding I wait

jagged broken mind,
flaking and shaking with fear,
turn my back and swim

splinters - fragments - loop
spinning thoughts spiral repeat
help me I'm falling

will I see next year,
I try and live day by day -
sirens call - endif

define mylife - (its
functions), trying to love, work,
and create - struggle

ifndef mylife -
drifting - lazy - good - have friends -
books - films - dreams of her

vodka, fresh lime and
soda alternating with
Guinness - suicide

I dreamt of rivers
and the sea, toy boats, flooded
cities - a playground

photons - love - stars - tears -
heart distillate - and a bit
of head and tail - blood

facing the madness
and the swirling winds that drive
my thoughts like clouds - fly

places on the map
that I gaze at - that bring me
peace - Chesapeake - Loire

in my fractured mind -
shuffle the pieces to make
a pleasing picture

force quit - the bridge - rain -
self esteem - cast iron - plants -
the disused railway

the bones of the skull -
the delicate case of nerves -
anatomy - flesh

the transmutation
of symbols inside dreams, nerves
fire and dance - twist - swirl

association
and memory, wood pigeon -
I'm a child - Sandbanks

balloon - blue - music -
release me and sail away
before I burst - moon

rainy April day,
film day, book day, programming,
while away the time

taste the sunlight fruit
inside the wine and release
the emotion - tears

vodka - distilled from
sunlight - add more sun in the
form of orange juice

walking through the fields,
the sunshine feels like laughter -
end up at the pub