facebookaholic -
need to break my addiction
and reclaim my life

the corners - spiders -
hurdles and tests - mountain paths
and choices - river

draw the air into
your lungs and stop the silence -
silken skies and rain

the echoes and voids -
cosmic microwave background -
structure in the cold

cold roast potatoes
taken from the fridge - a snack -
tasty leftovers

filigree - colours -
tempest - dawn - shells - purple - song -
texture - scent - balance

death-row prisoner,
the soldiers on the front line,
cancer patient - sand

as I move through life
barnacles of memory -
slave to wind and sea

drops of moisture cling
to the washing line and wave
- moving in the wind

diseased - raw - jangle -
the terminal barbed wire grasps -
eyelids torn - future

the solstice year turn -
buying presents in the dark -
waiting for the Feast

small green chillies mixed
into the mashed potato,
green Mars haunts my dreams

there is no summer -
the light falls on stony ground -
during the short day

alcohol fog -
drifting through conversations
clouding the jangle

christmas meal and drink
rocking the baby - laughter -
settling the bill

sand - diamonds - blue - eyes -
another picture of you
electron shells - photons

thin thread of despair
wraps around my throat - I choke
and my eyes bulge - sleep

it's all ice crystals -
balance of dreams - memory
pointers cast to void

persecuted - snag
paranoia rampages
- edge back from the cliff

geometric break
fractal interzone - the tide -
fermi paradox

dull and heavy day
after a long night drinking,
birthday booze - sphere - pop

I shout your name on
the empty beach inside
my dream, the waves crash

in the dark and damp
December afternoon, films
and books, food and wine

cope - stream - blanket - sun
summer - her face - the lightning -
the rain washing shells

over a hurdle
and onto the next, moving
across a landscape

chemicals evolved,
peering out of bone cases,
wetware network - words

I was ill - she left,
and I ought to forgive her,
it's a struggle - scars

winter walk with friends,
sauntering through fields, target
ahead, a pint - light

songs of vinegar,
midnight starlight and patterns
of twisted rope - nyx

the wasps in my head
drink wine and vomit embers
that burn nightingales

sit for a moment,
write a poem and reflect,
ten minutes - forever

gilded by balloons,
the ribbons and the laughter,
a children's party

climb the ladder
and knock on the moon, for the
tide of dreams calls - "rust"

feline visitor,
just saying hello, a safe
place to wash herself

cunt pussy clit slit
camel toe mons veneris
vagina vulva

unemployed poet -
fuck off - get a job - actor,
musician - laughter -
programmer? experience?
you're a bum - call centre

I pinched myself and
then I knew it was a dream,
I wanted you - wish

a hall of mirrors,
my Nemesis Stanley Fish,
the rainbow bridge - words

throw into the pool
the flowers and watch them swirl,
they cascade through time

the sun hides the stars,
our place in the sky
hidden like laughter

Erebus haunts me,
the ice caves fascinate me,
Nyx - dancing for him

icarus falling,
the red trojans of Neptune,
M87

silence walks the moon,
it was not my intention
to devour the sun

solve the equation,
furoshiki knot wrapping,
lilies of the field

holdfast unto faith
in people and life, despite
snaps and wasps and ice

a diet of wasps
feeds the loneliness so I
prey on alcohol

radioactive -
particle rain - DNA -
half-life and cancer

I see you and spin,
I am lost in the colours,
mandelbrot feelings

it is the river,
it is the silent dawn and
the slicing razor

soften the edges,
now more corduroy than punk,
salt and pepper hair

slip into the pool
and watch the patterns shimmer,
swim and breathe - unfold

working - balancing -
weaving - life and chores - garden
contemplation - seeds

I am stripped naked,
abrading in the sand storm,
polished to the bone

walk into the wood
and find a suitable tree,
the moon in my eyes

I am a penny
dissolving in vinegar,
let me disappear

friends like a blanket -
comfortable long acquaintance,
snugglely warm

the path to winter,
pumpkins and fireworks, the dark
becomes magical

my head is like soup,
a thick ooze of chemicals,
a stoned lethargy

songs of suicide
and fire that dance before me,
listening entranced

micro gravity -
float like a ball of water,
fragment and shatter

sparks and firelight,
flickering shadows and steel,
the sword maker works

the tilt of the world
driving the seasons, the wheel
and rhythms of light

halloween parade,
costumes and dark fantasies,
rotting flesh make-up

rigid shapes, like ice
captured frozen pattern of
falling water - snap

neurotransmitters,
the brain's delicate balance,
haloperidol

I don't remember,
the ingredients are wrong,
counteract the salt

information dose,
throw it into the silence,
people recoil - dark

the herbs and garlic,
casserole slowly cooking,
a glass of red wine

ginger cake and cream,
coffee and a cat asleep,
afternoon slips by

a countryside walk -
drifting through the scenery,
ambling with friends

the piano keys -
the white walls and a black cat -
waterfall music

with a little fear
a wisdom tooth extraction -
human ivory

drink when I get in,
a couple of vodka shots,
and supper cooking

taut like a bow string,
put the pebbles in my mouth,
throwing lit matches

Hospital

the silence folded,
the teeth which rip the fruit's flesh,
the smell of clean sheets

I don't know the way,
I don't have the heart to fight,
I walk straight ahead

falling like raindrops,
leaf buffeted by the wind,
I'm at your mercy

walking on the sand
the wind swirls and I am blind
momentarily

clean my eyelashes
and groom my eyebrows - my eyes
surrender silence

my life is empty
a lonely sea of nothing
stretches out in front

suicide and fear
haunt my waking mind today
to escape - to fly

when the door opens,
slip outside and run in light,
let it embrace you

silk and the twilight
of morning's slow increase
transitions - melting

exam aftermath
leave the autopsy alone
and on to the next

tumbling downhill
jangles in my head - zombie
stagger stepping stones

psychosis babble
the jibber jabber jagged
warps and wefts drumming

pineapple wineglass
vinegar gingerbread man
soil and dancing ants

to bath in sunlight
the warm blanket of floating
azure skies and breath

venom scratches puss
oozes maggots and flies - fear
razor blades my soul

the doubts I had - wash
and recombine to form ink
puddle bounced light

drag me over sand
I am an exile from peace
the landscape bleeds wire

geometric shapes
the tide pool left by the dreams
we remember - caves

to melt the poison
that leaks from my eyes - acid
rain burns electrons

buddleja and drums
the beating rain - moss and ferns -
dripping foliage

the dragons - the sharks -
the nargles and the demons -
stealing sanity

apples - strawberries
sunlight and water - the earth
made flesh to nourish

the structures we build
coral - the bones of the dead
a surface of now

the watermill turns
the grinding stone adding grit
to the flour - bread and life

my daily ritual
carved into the water
of photons and shells

poised - scintillating
you dazzle me. In my dream
we are calm and close.
I buy you a dress - you flash
your eyes - a thousand feelings.

fracture lines - coral
pencils and sharks - ivory
ornaments - fossils

revision razor
bathe my eyes in vinegar
i need to focus

rain forest - the sea -
Oort cloud - Antares - and time -
the mind's eye travels

the vault of the sky
time/space speckled with jewels
firmament patterns

in the deep dark - blue
Neptune the ice giant - long
seasons as Earth turns

why do I love you
the scorpion and the frog
my only answer

the inclined ellipse
very eccentric orbit
a dirty snowball

tumbling lonely
large semi major axis
out in the deep dark

deep dark peace and blue
river silk cream delicate
soothing washing fake

the rumpled duvet
the washing up left undone
shabby not dirty

diagonal dreams
of royalty and junkies
city streets and crowds

the glamour of ice
the secrets of the deep dark
visions in the cold

kuiper belt object
colourful "ices" - tumble
a future promise

the mercury tears
the solar flare - aurora
Earth so far away

some bucolic dreams
of farms by the sea
tessellation edge

the rolling green hills
apple and blueberry tea
a farm by the sea

the river - the snow
sugar slowly dissolving -
slow dawn of knowledge

the heliopause
and my obsession with you -
interstellar space

the uncertain tea
the fruit of time and labour
- dust is certain - drink

the electron shells
the pattern left by the sea
quantum flux and tea

I want to fall out
of my obsession with you -
break orbit and go

secure in the warmth
running water and oven
some food in the fridge

the L4 Trojan
tide locked asteroid - spinning -
orbiting the sun

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Minor_planet_moon

on the glacier
looking out into the dark
neolithic man

the river of stars
has the galactic black hole -
bright accretion disc

knotwork between us
woven strands forming a thread
nodes of dreams and words

head like honey ooze
drifting in and out of sleep
slow blink and sink - cream

the fruit from the tree
i collect and throw away
cornucopia

the leaves slowly turn
to Autumn colours again -
the hunkering down

shadows on the wall
when the bombs fall like petals -
radioactive
silence falls - planet firestorm
tsunami engulfs us all

where is the shoulder
between the road and the grave
breathing silent pause

the everyday lives
of ordinary people -
work, sleep, kids, laughter
the seasons cycle and fall
the forest's calm dignity

grabbing the last days
before the autumn sets in -
jobs in the garden

the transformations
from clouds to oceans - pulled by
the circulation

the light like butter
looking to the morning sun
melting the puddles

dead eyes in the earth
seeing only worms and soil -
liquefaction - tears

river - storm - the moon
the spring tide - the mounting waves -
ginger hair - spiral

journey in the dark
leaving behind memory's
phosphorescent wake

the herringbone mind
the natural dyes of tweed
the croft by the sea

naked in silence
standing in the dark and rain -
a fine mist falling

my head full of rain
the dark moon lost behind clouds
the bridge is washed clean

Luna seas of dust
a hope beyond my lifetime
sailing companion

my own bile chokes me
I suffocate in hatred -
still learning to love

i wish i was kind
deep down i call you a cunt
I poison myself

I hear the drumming
it's just the sound of the rain -
wash away the moon

the stagnant river
the smell of your love for him.
Be happy for you?

I eat the gravel
and smell the scent of grey paint
moon dust is my soap

the planet in space
my bubble of consciousness
air molecules drift

the smoke, the metal,
the charcoal, the forge, the sword,
yaki-modoshi

thawing out with jazz
cranberry juice and orange
the floating darkness

paper in water
soft pulp sunlight made lignin
a new element

maggots and bad milk
electrical flex noose - break -
mogadon escape

Fruit tea and clean boots
Tortellini and chicken
the simple touches

fill my arteries
with sausage fat, soured cream
and cheese - life is short

little by little
despite the nargles biting
progress is achieved

hand print on the wall
period mixed with semen
we danced together

the diamonds, the silk
the chocolate, the shadows
the darkness and hope

sing to me of rain
and the girl just out of reach -
daylight hidden stars

blinkered and frantic
there's a riot in my head -
a focus then peace

the social contract
broken by the feckless poor,
or the government,
where's hope for the underclass?
Divided society

a bottle of wine
some chicken in the oven
a film on TV

I want to be washed
clean of all the darkness which
paralyses me

I swim in the rain
you dance on the beach naked -
rainbow between us

the only escape
when the anxiety dreams come
is insomnia

I drift in shadows
muttering jangles and scraps,
in search of a fix

I died and became
a dispersing atom crowd
like ink in the sea

slip under water
mingle with the light - fine points
of supplicant rain

shower of fragments
melody and razor blades
catharsis silver

dissolve the salt blood
drain the blue memory pool
free the green river

the summer heat rings
silent bell washing waves - notes -
air resonating

measure the pain of
the broken bones of silence -
mute howl flooded nerves

Quality Water
Everywhere - Reasonable -
Tenacity - Yearn

cleaning off the soot
from the washing line - city smog
unseen collecting

fractured vinegar
spitting misanthropic thoughts
screaming flashing push

the jagged glances
struggling to walk in step
looping and phasing

absorbing daylight
sitting in my garden - cat
asleep on my lap

retracing my steps
in charcoal - memory smears -
I find leaves falling

I drink the poison
the dripping chittering yew
sliding through my head

the wasp husk, rotting
and mouldy, stirs - out creeps fear
insect sharp - swollen

to live without hope
step by step - renounce desire
and endure the void

hybridization
interzones and border guards
heroes and journeys

knitted together
with plausible yarns - the lies
of fidelity

the long roots of teeth
the coal industry ripped out
job transformation

wind on the river
blowing ripples upstream - light -
dappled photon bounce

a central black hole
fire, ice and isolation
my galaxy - home

waning gibbous moon
the spring tide rising - July
and the rain washes

to rip a whisper
from a dream of longing sand
the waves dissolved

the blood and river
the eyes scarred by diamond grit
the white noise roaring

the green, blue and red
my irrationality
the drums and symbols

the revolution
Bastille Day - blood on the streets
Bunting and flowers

a species apart
the cat asleep in my arms -
her old man eyebrows

representation
of words amongst the neurons
semantic latice

post apocalypse
dreamscape of feral nature
Buddleja and rain

I worked long and hard
my stubborn will bent like yew -
springing back to shape

the cells trapped in bone
the emergent behaviour
of mind in the brain

a storm on Saturn
the far away violence
politics and lives

I feel the river
fingers dipped into the water -
Soar, Trent, Humber, sea

cogs in the machine
true, yet we can maneuver -
trapped with space to move -
if one moves - it ripples out
trapped - not powerless

Winter passed to Spring
the grass where crocuses grew
shaved and yellowing

mould on the cracked tiles
underwear hanging to dry
water stained mirror

dry sticks and old bones
desert winds and stalagmites
prison camps - scarlet

summer morning light
photon rivers of gladness
butter and warm bread

revisit an old book
taste the herbs half-remembered
fresh colour again

water from the tap
cool and clear like love, washing
the thirst from yearning

the cunt of freedom
intoxicating riot
boundaries and peace

feel the eyelids droop
taking a languorous blink
sudden start - cat nap

the little corporals
are taking names on the bus
Don't go home tonight
Stay with me and dance at last
For tomorrow the sky falls

I curl and wither
bowed with a weight of madness
frost burned fern - brittle

forget the mad eyes
I send towards you - frost sharp
I regret my snow

whirling colour sea
still point in a dark spotlight
I sit amidst life

spider on the breeze
paragliding on a thread
risks predatory joy

shoots and leaves appear
oak saplings in bonsai pots -
despite the dry Spring

the perfume I bought
the present gathering dust
bottled emotions

found when I was drunk
a little plastic tiger
vulnerable strength

lying in the bath
drifting off smoking a spliff -
before my break down

waiting at the bar
the pint of Guinness settles
pattern in the foam

sitting on the bus
listening to my iPod
going home from work

unable to make
a strong statement of colour
i see shadows; break;

the empty vortex
another voice in the wind
cast adrift in sand

get back on the bike
journey miles in the darkness
through the woods and moors

putrescence - maggots
childhood memories - madness
cloud of flies - alone

hand in the river
connected by arteries
the oceans linked poles

slice my soul - river
put the feelings on a shelf
wash the silence - stroke

the lightening parade
and thunder rush, tequila
and youth screaming wild

gumption test, a wall
struggle past, moving in steps
mountain canal locks

walking the long road
destination far away
my focus wavers

sail and steal moments
the pirates of happiness
the flag of bones flies

insomnia strikes
sleep my friend my enemy
taut relationship

the sinews and roots
intertwined - naked - gasping
tendrils of glass - raw

threadbare hope covers
the shadow, stretched thin and lean,
poverty worn socks

my love hides with rain
the shadows and the darkness
my soul splintered bare

particles and waves
the periodic table
with electron shells

wandering footsteps
parched earth and naked flame
plastic detritus

changing light and rain
a crisp packet full of pain
and stars recycled

the rhythms and waves
death and water flow, recycle
atoms into stars

tomorrow tumbles
down the calendar, like a
domino wave

The still pool of faith
evaporates in silence
like ether, like eyes

the dealers and thieves
musicians in the basement
bohemian knives

changing light and rain
the razor blades and sunshine
the clouds toboggan

the bricks I carry
to build a structure of ice
in the summer sun

walking through the park
past alcoholics and dealers
sunbathers and kids

I splinter and break
ceramic security
brittle mind and heart

ask not for summer
let the seasons run their course
Record changing light

bubbling jitters
roaring stark in my mind's ear
hullabaloo blood

heart thump, screaming reds
the yammer and the swirling
panic attack shriek

slice and dice, drip drip
blood flow spatter suicide
bathroom red sprinkles

blood flows through my veins
oxygenated fluid
5 litres circles

sitting in the cave
watching shadows on the wall
language and ideas

I swim in language
I lack gills to breathe the words
I dive and struggle

I swim in language
it ripples across my skin
talk, books - swirling words

sing of the tiger
capitalism
my father, sunset

listen to the song
in my dream you were asleep
the river, the sky

return to a book
revisit forgotten words
gentle balloon ride

gaze into the fire
and feel the waves wash your skin's
blood to the surface

the promise of wine
seductive sunlight captured
fruit scintillation

the laughter of ants
forging foraging scent trails
forest social nest

the blue/green dragon
the slayer of delusion
Spring rain Acala

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Acala
http://www.onmarkproductions.com/html/dragon.shtml
Acala is linked to dragons via Kurikara

the violent eyes
psychosis acid and spit
mirror fragments

my heart skips a beat
I see a picture of you
another sand grain

the cuisine of peace
simmer friendship, splash of wine,
knead garden - enjoy

burgers on the grill
sound of metal expanding
glamorous supper

the scarlet dragon
the teeth that rip the hanged flesh
carnivorous silk

the tangents of thought
peel a river, upwards rain
light dance, oxbow lake

a thimble of time
looking at the summer stars
by the campsite fire

the white noise midnight
the swish and swirl alcohol
porcelain shards

chasm between us
indifference and silence
I rot - glass fragments

the ebb tide pulls me
I drift out to sea alone
raft to the wide world

the scaffolding stands
and waits by the path, I see
the darkness in silk

the fledgeling poet
haiku in the Twitter age
counting syllables

ageing aches and pains
bad posture for years payday
middle age belly
the signs of mortality
one day, today, will seem young

bags of rotting food
milk so old it's gone solid
childhood memories

the bonding and glue
renewal of acquaintance
feed the routes for growth

(note:- i did mean routes not roots
as in the routes of communication, the roads)

uncurl like a frond
the medication eases
the chisel edges

the sword sleeps in peace
salute the unknown soldier
waiting for Arthur

civil war, no blood,
civilized conflict
fighting with words - votes

the cat on the wall
soaking up the spring sunshine
last year's leaves rustle

nurturing habits
trying to adapt my life
to some new patterns

end of a chapter
Bin Laden is dead, closure
completion is nice
the war on terror goes on
the abstract emotion lives

my ear in shadow
I wait for her to reply
Orbit of the moon

garden breeze and slow
the sun shines through my eyelids
big toe stretch and curl

work by increments
my style is feast or famine
imitate water
the dripping tap is better
learning to be consistent

the mind made of sticks
the big bad wolf comes to call
everything gone

the biscuit of hope
is dunked in reali tea
softens and crumbles

strangely unpeaceful
my stomach jibber jabber
just thinking about code

the stellar relics
decompose to form new clouds
element enriched

lonely and empty
next door having an orgasm
they are young, me once

procession of days
programming, books and tv
empty without love

renunciation?
moderation in all things
beware the extremes

practice and effort
polish the mind and sharpen
light in Plato's cave

knot therapy
at work sitting on the floor
unraveling wires

music through the wall
uni work done for now, adrift
weightless nausea

on the brink waiting
the tenterhooks claw my flesh -
done, the morning dew

packaging my drugs
in daily plastic boxes
my weekly intake

subconscious flotsam
flood waters around my bed
electricity

herbivore patience
alert and ruminating
about you and him

stressed about uni
always at the last minute
the rush to finish

cheese, onion and port,
sumptuous and decadent,
ravishing mixture

the perfect balance
erosion and entropy
phoenix life recycles

the heating is off
the heating turned on again
the English weather

watch it drift away
message cast into the sea
asynchronous note

perihelion
so close, I see the starlight
again in the dark

the arc of the sun
as the planet slowly turns
stay in the light - move

gumption tests and walls
fighting the slings and arrows
stubborn yet listen

what is wrong with me?
a lack of motivation,
amongst other things

sitting in the sun,
cat on my lap, a spring day,
siren far away

I'm dislocated
snafu of whirlpool angles,
tangents and drumbeats

rope around my neck
tonight I stood on the brink
to live is a choice

a short exercise
in communicating thoughts
a snapshot of dust

doing roast chicken
traditional sunday lunch
is a rare event

dream driving again
a regular occurrence -
which one is the breaks?

wading through syrup
i'm not a morning person
alertness slow dawn

work to a schedule?
bollocks micro increments
aren't really my style

in the job centre
with the hopeless and the mad
Hogarth carnival

nuts i missed my chore
i forgot my daily task
a haiku a day

the zombie spittle
snaps reckless hate, pursued
by the dream shadows

sun burn of the mind
intense itch inside my brain
scratching makes it worse

the rain in my dreams -
i listen to the drumming
change into legions

tennis poster girl
became a middle aged lady
pondering the light


http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-birmingham-12833580

unravel a thread
to traverse the labyrinth -
tethered to the world

learning all the names
on the first day on placement -
actually quite chilled

feather in the breeze
swirling chaotically
fighting gravity

too much emotion
so gridlock inside the soul
scheduler load crunch

celestial sphere
we spin within, the pole dance
the burlesque of stars

the lunar surface
desolate seas and footprints
micro meteors

net disconnected
liberated and alone
the outside retreats

giving up my seat
I see the old lady smile
I have my reward

seeing the world anew
potter's wheel words spin lenses
darkly, clay my clay

the bay of rainbows
is the place i want to be
the luna refuge

my tambourine heart
I don't know where the path leads
darkness eats my eyes

i loathe you and yet
i will always love you, yet
you break my heart, but

my anxiety
I drown in it, bloated corpse,
the stench vomits forth

a drink in the day
the sun over the yard arm?
naughty, but fuck it

slide into a bath
of chemical muscle pop -
taut as a spring - gone

I hold the pillow
a monkey seeking comfort
At sea in my bed

it takes the edge off
sharp rigid razor dazzle
smoothed to a dappled light

roman republican coin
fighting the strong enemy
Fabian tactics

breathe in the shadows
absorb the darkness, the überwald
the listening, beckoning black

i don't fight for you
i don't fight with hope inside
suicide pain - fear
give me a cyanide pill
and I would go like the breeze

a steady drip drip
of work is not my strong point
my tao - walk and sleep

Bell Labs, Xerox PARC
The dream of the empty field
that's filled by blue sky

lost in the dark wood
i stumble and jangle my head -
the detritus mulch

the burning incense
the rolling and coiling smoke
the sandalwood scent

writing code for the
bow wave of technology
to wash it aside

sprinkle the chicken
with dried herbs from distant lands
roast and enjoy wine

taking baby steps
I stagger from day to day
wobbly and nervous

the winter sand dunes
grit of memory - washed
bikinis and shells

a minute with each
8 years to say a quick - bye
the holocaust ghosts

I want to make you
come like the dawn bright and weak
relentless crescendo

I want to put my hand
between your legs and make you
pant and gasp release

In the port wine depth
I love you more than my soul
taste the blood and salt

swim with me tonight
feel the current of darkness
shimmering dreams

the velvet embrace
of the chocolate darkness
in the peaceful pool

I survived the day
wine replaced hope - finger nails -
clinging on with dust

nothing to live for
I've no reason to endure
I may just step out

there's blood on the street
in the town of Benghazi -
the doors rattle free

follow the river
across alien landscapes
find the source of dreams

light passes through me
I'm a confidence shaped hole
drawn in dust and blood

weather of my mind
drizzle erodes my heart, frost
fractures endurance

incense fills the house
the wide open mountain sky
the smoke coils and rolls

a dream of flying -
fire lantern slowly rising -
pool - dive and surface

mish mash of jangles
my nervous anxiety
mouse heart and twitching

Valentine's alone
anchorless in love and life
the Sargasso Sea

conflict aftermath
cortisol strangled neurons
jangle nettle soup

the growing structures
knowledge like a coral reef
accretion lagoon

watch life desiccate
the clay of hope turn to dust
pensioner child once

choking on the dust
crumbled hopes and withered dreams
the mirage ahead

i watch avidly
bouncy bouncy go the boobs
seven of nine running

i saw a crocus
and today the sky was blue.
hope? Tantalus? Real?

the tide of bullshit
ripped out nails aggression
fingers bleed, scratch, drown

can't be arsed lifetime
bollocks, i can't cope, fuck it
lazy lay in bed

the paranoid hooks
drag the flesh from my mind
leaving soul gobbets

black swan seduction
singing in the dead of night
she arches her back

the spicy pasta
dances flavour in my mouth
basil and chilli

the butterfly flap
air turbulence and the coin
the cascade of chaos

remorseless reason
stainless steel and ceramic
the forensic slab

i'm buried in ice.
emotions, a silent storm
scream catatonic

the song of sixpence
mirror for an unjust world
where is Jenny wren?

i hate this module
concentrate on endurance
only need to pass

terrycloth comfort
clinging like Harlow's monkeys
food, alcohol, blue

orbiting the clock
my body clock drifts, daylight
phasing in and out

polis, urban space
masala of immigrants
the raucous music

the polis, guildhall
rats and cats and the river
Roman baths, McDonald's

creative interzone
jobs, shops and traffic wardens
parks, pubs, dog shit, noise

I love my city
the exuberant ragged flow
detritus magic

on the empty page
etch the binary graphemes
sail to ithaca

the Hollywood divorce
available through Facebook
online mudslinging

my little blue pills
double dose to keep me sane
or at least alive

the Bristol Stool Scale
last night we were talking shit.
Nurse keeping it real.

in case there's a fire
put your heart in a shoebox,
accessible, safe.

Naked you run for your life,
watch everything precious burn.

a knock, I descend
suicide thoughts fill my head,
tangled in jangles

she craves a baby,
gnawed by time, ignored by love
she paints the facade

children of the dream
a vision reached for and lost
the future's for rent

slowly unwinding
the knot of stress unravels
and my world opens up

rabbit visitor
hopping around the kitchen
furry explorer

the jangles of skew
off balance with thoughts of you
jitters tangled worms

take the chemicals,
your brain needs realigning
to rational thought

succulent silence
from the disquiet of bees,
the nectar of peace

song stuck in my head
spiralling behind my eyes
it looped through my dream

the search for a job
my greatest enemy - fear,
another breakdown

I see an echo
i shone my love through a prism
corinthian glass

the blotting paper
a sketch in one thousand tears
stains of memory

a spider's eye view
reality's fractal shoreline
fissures in my mind

your belly button
the curve of your lower back
breathing in the dark

slip into the pool
drift away into silence
sleep and suicide

I'm full of jitters
they vomit forth from my eyes
jangling naked

equanimity
filled my soul from your eyes and
then you walked away

the rain gently falls
a grey January day
sheltered and warm home

illness, brain spirals,
a shark circling, swirl, storm,
static fried neurons

slowly improving
hours of struggling uphill
but now the code works

the pitter-patter
of stress and anxiety
inside my stomach

caesium second
the annual increment
galactic orbit